Big life changes!

I've had a lot going on over the last few months. Since breaking up and getting back together, us both working on ourselves, and us as a couple, we've decided to buy a house! The whole process is different, there is a lack of transparency, as I dont know every single aspect of his financial state like I did when I bought my first house, or second for that matter, with my ex. We have agreed to a joint account to pay the bills from and the rest of our money belongs to the individual. I feel more timid about plans for the house, as we are still learning each other's ideals. And today be fair, my ex didn't earn half of what I did, so if I wanted to do something, I felt more entitled. With my new live, it is very important to me that this, his first house, become everything he has dreamt it will be.

In the ever changing moments, I have been quiet and reflecting on my divorce as well as my current relationship and life in general and tonight I just can't keep it to myself.

1. Divorce sucks. No one goes in to a marriage thinking it is going to end in flames as mine did. If they do, they shouldn't be getting married.

2. Healing is HARD work. But anything worth having takes effort. You have to work on yourself before you can be successful in life. Honesty is key. If you get knocked down, get up again, it will be worth it.

3. Getting an annulment in the Catholic Church is a pain - it is not quick and it certainly isn't fun. Refer to #2. FANTASTIC NEWS, mine is finally complete!

4. Divorce and healing is worth it. The saying "When one door closes, another one opens" is so true.

When I met my handsome man , I wasn't looking for anything serious. Somehow, with a lot of patience and understanding he has become a very important part of my life. We've had ups and downs, but through it all we have agreed to work on ourselves and us as a couple. I received this amazing Mother's Day gift from him, and it means more to me than I probably can express appropriately. I have racked my brain, and I can only recall a gift from my sister, and my friend/colleague/boss/bosses boss, that was a "mom" gift. And of course a necklace my son got me one year. Anything "mom" designated I've bought myself. Until today. My sweet man surprised me with this amazing sweatshirt. He gets me. God closed the door so another could open where I am loved and understood in a way I've never been before.

So for all of you out there feeling like there is a dark cloud hovering, afraid ypu will never find better, never face a tough day or situation without dread, my wish for you is that find hope in this post. Hang in there, the best is yet to come.